The past few weeks, I've been feeling more and more exhausted. And I don't even know exactly where this feeling comes from. Especially since so far I have been surprisingly successful at avoiding the requisite bout of 'flu for this season.

The amount of work at the office has been more than, let's say, in September, but still, it's not unreasonably much. However, the fact that at least one day per week I have the "honor" of being the only one of our section present just may be a contributing factor. These last two months, I've been unable to take a full week's vacation since that would have left our section not only understaffed (as it is at the moment), but rather unmanned (now why is that not "unwomanned", huh?). Somehow I'm beginning to fail to see the humor in signing just received inquiries and then delegating them to the only competent officer currently present - me.

My next homepage update is still in the works since I seem to be unable to gather the necessary enthusiasm and inspiration to write the respective story reviews and work through the link section. "Man from U.N.C.L.E." and "The Sentinel" will be up shortly, I swear. If only I could get that week's vacation...

Then yesterday my favorite BT forum went belly up. I honestly have no idea how I'm going to find and download all my favorite shows now and not take two weeks until the last few KB trickle in. I hate this.

And finally, "Stargate: Atlantis" is a big weight on my chest. I want to watch that show again, I truly do. I want to love that show again, and squee over McKay and Sheppard. But ep. 2x13 "Critical Mass" threw me for a loop, left me stranded on the outside of this fandom, and I haven't been able to force myself to grit my teeth and suffer through the rest of season 2 (supposedly, season 3 will get better). Due to spoilers, that means I haven't read any McShep slash since, stopped downloading the new stories at Wraithbait in July (when using IE, the default title line of each file in the archive is the same and therefore prevents fast and mindless saving of files) and haven't kept up with the sga_newsletter either since perhaps Mid-August.

And now SGA fanfic is a huge, looming mountain of still-unsaved-and-unread stories that scares me off even more by simply existing.

Add to that the fact that my hard drives are full and the stack of unwatched tv episodes is just as huge and threatening, and I feel overwhelmed in that respect, too.

Yeah, this is a pity party of one. Sue me.