I wish the fucking city had blown up.

I now officially hate Weir, Sheppard, Dex and McKay. The sanctioned torture.

It's not relevant that their victim turned out to be innocent in the end. It's not relevant that he fainted before he could actually be hurt by his torturer. It's not relevant that Weir might have had the slightest twinge of remorse afterwards. It's not important that McKay "only" kept silent instead of actually ordering it - like Weir (with her words) and Sheppard (with his nod).

This can't be excused or explained away. There is always another way.

Stooping to torture makes you less than human. It turns you into a monster.

I only watch a series whose characters I like, whose characters I root for. I cannot root for monsters. I was bawling the whole time since that first order by Weir and nod by Sheppard. I cried because I had to watch my heroes turn into people I no longer recognized.

And if anyone just dares imply that Kavanagh brought it all onto himself by being uncooperative, a jerk and by bashing poor Lizzie, I am gonna go mental. In contrast to everyone else, he had her pegged since "38 Minutes", and I applauded him when he accused her of being incompetent during his first "interview" in "Critical Mass". I always felt that when she tore into him during that jumper-stuck-in-the-gate fiasco, she was needlessly cruel, dismissive, unreasonable and just plain old wrong. He was concerned - there was no indication that he advised caution because he was a coward. That was only something she decided to interpret into his words and dress him viciously down for in public.

Atlantis is the SGC's Guatanamo Bay - be suspected, be accused, be held without access to a legal representative, be convicted without a trial or being heard, be tortured.

Somehow I am certain Kavanagh will not get ten minutes of grovelling and begging for forgiveness by Weir and her cohorts in the next episode. And they are the people I am supposed to be a fan of.

Strangely enough, I don't have the stomach for some McShep lovin' right now. Actually, I kind of wish their dicks fell off.

I had plans to write a post-"Trinity" fic in which Kavanagh had to correct the timeline by finding and working with an AU Rodney McKay, and they turned into something like friends - very much to Sheppard's consternation. I wanted to redeem Kavanagh, and show Sheppard that McKay did not depend on his friendship. Now I would have to redeem McKay, and I just don't feel like doing that at the moment.

And thankfully I'm not the only one broken up over this, as evidenced by this and this. The majority seems to be ignoring the issue, but at least not all of fandom does.